I am imagining our two chasing bubbles around the garden today Sally.
Thinking of you today. xo
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Happy 2nd Birthday Hope!
I am imagining our two chasing bubbles around the garden today Sally.
Thinking of you today. xo
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
What constitutes a friend? I am running a poll...
In the world we live in today with email, blogs and Skype what is a friend? Years ago you had to know and see someone to consider them a friend because that was all we knew. But with technology how can you limit a friendship to psychical interaction. It is small mindedness at it's best.
I know people around the corner I have known for years less than I do some people I have met online...It opens up a world of possibility that generations ago never existed.. finding common interestes or understanding...that is friendship. It should never be about the lenght of time or the location.
Should relationships be discriminated against because much of it is online?
What do you think? Feel free to post this question as I would like as broard a view on this as possible. I will post in a few days as to why I ask this question...
PS - I even met Adrian online and 9 months later we were married. Thankyou RSVP :)
I know people around the corner I have known for years less than I do some people I have met online...It opens up a world of possibility that generations ago never existed.. finding common interestes or understanding...that is friendship. It should never be about the lenght of time or the location.
Should relationships be discriminated against because much of it is online?
What do you think? Feel free to post this question as I would like as broard a view on this as possible. I will post in a few days as to why I ask this question...
PS - I even met Adrian online and 9 months later we were married. Thankyou RSVP :)
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Statistics
After all that we went through we don't believe in statistics. I was 1:150,000 with my rupture... I had a 50:50 chance of survival... but I have since met a handful of other women in Sydney who experienced the same thing as me.
The statistic we keep hearing about babies in Australia is 6 a day don't survive. 6 a day... we are not a third world country.. we have the best of the best here so why is this happening? Why are babies still dying before they even get a chance.
6 a day...
In our great grandparents time it was a common occurrence for babies to be born sleeping or die in the first year of life.. but these days??
6 a day...
Adrian was listening to drive radio last week about home births and mothers rights. This topic gets me going especially the VBAC crazies out there (that's a story for another time). Callers including a few Dr's were talking about how rare it was for complications these days and how safe a home birth is. He felt compelled to tell our story and was given over 5 mins on air without interruption.
He talked of holding his warm limp daughter and being told his wife may not survive. (If was across the road from the hospital and not in it I would have died.) He also spoke of the 6 a day statistic and our OB's comment about it 'it is a statistic we don't want getting out there'. The announcer who almost lost a child 7 years before finished the call with 'well there is to say about that'.
6 a day...
I don't believe it is right that the Dr's want to hide it to 'protect women'. Of course I don't mean scare ever pregnant woman on the planet, but I would rather have known these were possibilites and not thought from week 12 it was all plain sailing. If I had known I would have asked more questions and yelled so I was listened to and Sophie would BE HERE WITH US... but we trusted and we lost, and Adrian was almost a Widow.
I just don't see the harm in talking about it, I want people to talk about it. I want families to have the knowledge to change that. Imagine if it was 2 a day and not 6!
We all talk about Breast Cancer openly but did you know 'statistically' each year almost the same number of Women lose the battle with Breast Cancer as babies are born sleeping.
I hope we can change that someday soon.
The statistic we keep hearing about babies in Australia is 6 a day don't survive. 6 a day... we are not a third world country.. we have the best of the best here so why is this happening? Why are babies still dying before they even get a chance.
6 a day...
In our great grandparents time it was a common occurrence for babies to be born sleeping or die in the first year of life.. but these days??
6 a day...
Adrian was listening to drive radio last week about home births and mothers rights. This topic gets me going especially the VBAC crazies out there (that's a story for another time). Callers including a few Dr's were talking about how rare it was for complications these days and how safe a home birth is. He felt compelled to tell our story and was given over 5 mins on air without interruption.
He talked of holding his warm limp daughter and being told his wife may not survive. (If was across the road from the hospital and not in it I would have died.) He also spoke of the 6 a day statistic and our OB's comment about it 'it is a statistic we don't want getting out there'. The announcer who almost lost a child 7 years before finished the call with 'well there is to say about that'.
6 a day...
I don't believe it is right that the Dr's want to hide it to 'protect women'. Of course I don't mean scare ever pregnant woman on the planet, but I would rather have known these were possibilites and not thought from week 12 it was all plain sailing. If I had known I would have asked more questions and yelled so I was listened to and Sophie would BE HERE WITH US... but we trusted and we lost, and Adrian was almost a Widow.
I just don't see the harm in talking about it, I want people to talk about it. I want families to have the knowledge to change that. Imagine if it was 2 a day and not 6!
We all talk about Breast Cancer openly but did you know 'statistically' each year almost the same number of Women lose the battle with Breast Cancer as babies are born sleeping.
I hope we can change that someday soon.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Where did my confidence go?
My life is about to change for the better and because of this change I need to think about what I am going to do with it.. at least until I get the opportunity (and crossing everything I have) to be a mum here on earth.
The biggest problem is since losing Sophie pretty much any passion I had for anything has vanished. Getting excited about the future is a dream I wake up from. I see glimpses of things I like or used to like but I am flat about almost everything.
The old me, the person my husband married was 'a glass half full' kinda girl, the life of the party. As an angel mum my glass has almost dried up! You see, my body let Sophie die. She fought and I failed that's it. No if's or but's and I have to deal with that forever.
These demons I face also mean I have zero confidence. Was it not enough to lose Sophie? The confidence in myself has been removed like my uterus should have been. In fact I feel like my uterus... it's there and functioning just but it can never again do what it was meant to do. I go through the motions but it's all a cover!
I miss the old me but I am not sure I will ever find her fully again. What I do know is that I am scared of the unknown... something I would have grabbed head on in the past.
The biggest problem is since losing Sophie pretty much any passion I had for anything has vanished. Getting excited about the future is a dream I wake up from. I see glimpses of things I like or used to like but I am flat about almost everything.
The old me, the person my husband married was 'a glass half full' kinda girl, the life of the party. As an angel mum my glass has almost dried up! You see, my body let Sophie die. She fought and I failed that's it. No if's or but's and I have to deal with that forever.
These demons I face also mean I have zero confidence. Was it not enough to lose Sophie? The confidence in myself has been removed like my uterus should have been. In fact I feel like my uterus... it's there and functioning just but it can never again do what it was meant to do. I go through the motions but it's all a cover!
I miss the old me but I am not sure I will ever find her fully again. What I do know is that I am scared of the unknown... something I would have grabbed head on in the past.
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